Whatever . . .

I started saying stupid things... it is tottaly not the time to act like I am a victim or something.. but...

I keep wondering if I am.. I mean.. if.. Fuck it! I give up. This is not because of someone.. it is because of me.. I cannot even make the differance between what is good and what isn’t.

I thought I was afraid of being alone... but sadly I realised that this is the only way I can understand my feelings.. I feel stupid. I feel like I am a nothing..

I don’t know what I want.. or what I need.. or what I am looking for.